half-tied ribbons

i must have blinked…

• Posted by Kristy on August 14th, 2008 filed in the fam

because my baby is starting school, in approximately 10 days, 15 hours, and 23 minutes. um, not sure how this almost 6 years has gone so quickly. seems like we were just bringing her scrawny-little-wrinkled-up-too-cold-6 pound self home from the hospital. and cranking the heat up to 75 in arkansas in early november (now we don’t need it unless it’s down into the 40’s out, a little perspective for you) just to make sure we didn’t freeze the poor little dear. looking back i think our thermometer was just broken, the hospital one. it was like a mini sauna. add that to the emotions of a new mom and what you have is a recipe for disaster. i’m emotional all over again now. reflecting, praying, hoping that i’ve given her what she needs to go to school, and not just a new pair of jeans. i mean, i know it’s not like she’s off to college or anything yet, but come on people, this is a big deal. i am cast into the throes of first time motherhood milestones once again. friends have asked me, “are you gonna cry?” i just chuckle and say, “uh, yeah, i am crying already! i have been for the past 6 years!” somehow motherhood brings it all out. all my , all my hopes and dreams, love so strong i think my heart will burst out of my ribcage, and so much more. i’m so proud of the girl we’ve been blessed with. i love it  when she’s tired & there is nothing right with the world (i can so relate), how she just wants to snuggle, how she draws things for mike and wraps them in paper towel gift wrap for when he comes home from work, how she makes a cute big-eyed face and rubs her hands together excitedly, how she is such a helper, how she understands so much, how she loves animals almost more affectionately than people, and that she absolutely says she can’t choose who she loves most : it’s me, mike, and lilly.

i think she will love school. i knew when she was 18 months old telling me “mom, that little boy is eating a goldfish off the floor, and that is not the right thing to do” that i had a little rule follower on my hands. she was cut out for school, and has been since, well, since before time. and i’m excited for this new adventure! we’ve both mellowed a little over the years, hopefully.

just pray that i don’t slobber and glubber, and snot all over her table on the first day or something so that her teacher opens that brand new box of kleenex we just turned in…and that she will let the teacher be the teacher and not take on that responsibility yet! oh, the fate.